timid and tended ened to Sidded . Pale, for many days by t to eat, gave no open look, did not open , met e ance and denial.
Sidd ood t kno t s of ricomed to finer food, to a soft bed, accustomed to giving orders to servants. Siddood t t suddenly and ent rangers and in poverty. force piece of to win ience.
Rico ime ime, and tranger and in a gloomy disposition, since ubbornly disobedient , did not to do any pay to tole from Vasudevas fruit-trees, to understand t broug suffering and t, t taken on to be and the field.
For a long time, for long monted for o understand o accept o pere it. For long monted, ced and said notormented e and an unsteadiness in ook in talked to him.
quot;Pardon me.quot; ;from a friendly , Im talking to you. Im seeing t you are tormenting yourself, Im seeing t youre in grief. Your son, my dear, is omed to a different life, to a different nest. , like you, ran aed and fed up ; against o leave all times I . But t laug me, it laug you and me, and is ser at out fooliser s to join er, youts to join yout in too soo sen to it!quot;
troubled, Siddo cheerfulness.
quot; ; ly, as;Give me some more time, my dear! See, Im figo ience I intent to capture it. One day, talk to ;
Vasudevas smile flouris;Ooo is called upon, oo is of ternal life. But do o take, ions to perform, o endure? Not a small one, er all, is proud and o suffer a lot, err a lot, do mucice, burden tell me, my dear: youre not taking control of your sons upbringing? You dont force beat punis;
quot;No, Vasudeva, I dont do anyt;
quot;I kne. You dont force beat give quot;softquot; is stronger t;;, ater stronger tronger t arent you mistaken in t you force punis you s you make you make it even ience? Dont you force and pampered boy, to live in a ers, to be s are old and quiet and beats in a different pace t forced, isnt ;
troubled, Siddo tly, ; do you t;
Quot;Bring o ty, bring o ill be servants around, give o t any around any more, bring o a teac for teac so t of t;
quot;Youre seeing into my ,quot; Sidd;Often, I of t look, ender anyo t , o pleasure and po all of akes, entirely lost in Sansara?quot;
Brig up; softly, ouc;Ask t it, my friend! laug it! ould you actually believe t you ted your fooliss in order to spare your son from committing too? And could you in any ect your son from Sansara? eacion? My dear, irely forgotten t story, t story containing so many lessons, t story about Siddold me ? tion, eaco keep eaco protect , from drinking tter drink for peraking t pertle son ? But even if you en times for be able to take test part of iny upon yourself.quot;
Never before, Vasudeva troubled into t, could not sleep for a long time. Vasudeva old already t and kno act upon, stronger tronger thus happily?
Sidd give up t t ed; daily, e struggle of friendliness, t ience. Vasudeva also said noted, friendly, knoient. ters of patience.
At one time, ime ago, in to ;You cannot love,quot; so ar, line. Indeed, o lose or devote ely to anoto forget o commit fooliss for to do t o t time, t distinction noo a love, of love. No, late, once in ime, trongest and strangest of all passions, suffered from it, suffered miserably, and , enriching.
t it ers. Nevert at time, it o be atoned for, to be endured, ts also o be committed.
t s, let for ion, let e o ed man, per man, per, all ttributes ed trick of t if ened by him, if he had been abused by him.
A day came, urned against ter ask, old o gat t leave t, in stubborn disobedience and rage ayed burst red and contempt into hers face.
quot;Get t; ed foaming at t;Im not your servant. I do kno you me, you dont dare; I do kno you constantly to punis me doion and your indulgence. You me to become like you, just as devout, just as soft, just as I, listen up, just to make you suffer, I rat to become a o o become like you! I e you, youre not my faten times been my motor!quot;
Rage and grief boiled over in turned late at night.
But t morning, , of bast of t lying by te bank. the boy had ran away.
quot;I must follo;A c go t all alone. build a raft, Vasudeva, to get over ter.quot;
quot;e ,quot; said Vasudeva, quot;to get our boat back, run along, my friend, o get around. o ty, and , dont forget t. youve failed to do yourself. aking care of aking youre suffering a pain at wo laug w;
Sidd ans of bamboo, and Vasudeva o tied togeted far off t upriver on te bank.
quot;ake t; asked Siddha.
Vasudeva said: quot;It mig t got lost.quot;
But Sidd , to get even and in order to keep t, t in t. Vasudeva pointed to ttom of t and looked at ed to say: quot;Dont you see rying to tell you? Dont you see t to be follo; But say tarted making a ne Siddo look for t stop him.
for a long time, t occurred to , ty, or, if ill be on inued t , stopping, no longer to save to satisfy to perime. And o just outside of ty.
y, opped, by trance of tiful pleasure-garden, o Kamala, ime in rose up in anding t. For a long time, Siddood te into tiful trees.
For a long time, ood tening to tory of ime, ood t trees. Clearly, kiss from s, tired, felt once again disgust, felt once again to annie he holy Om.
After anding by te of time, Sidd o t
alloo cling t, like a time t t been given to o turn t, t it o become a blossom and o shine.
t t blossom yet, did not s, at tead of tiness. Sadly, do somet, experienced emptiness, sa in t and ed. ting, ience, listening attentively. And and listened, in t of tened to , beating tiredly and sadly, ed for a voice. Many an ening, sao emptiness, let seeing a pat tly spoke t o of see him.
From trified state, oucantly, oucender, basouced Vasudeva, o t o too. Noe ter tly back into t urned o talked about ioned t t, Sidder a wo o offer -milk, he already found him asleep.