ted one, stayed beayed be t in t life also stayed beed from tion, er o tion, doo to identify t seemed to ions turn into realizations and are not lost, but become entities and start to emit like rays of lig is inside of them.
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opped as ts caug a sprang fort, I kno myself, t Siddo me, stems from one cause, a single cause: I o dissect my self and peel off all of its layers, to find ts unknoerior, tman, life, t, timate part. But I myself in t;
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time. Beautiful range and mysterious and tains iful, all of it erious and magical, and in its midst ered Sidd time tless and coincidental diversity of mere appearances, despicable to ty, ill t very divinitys o be , and ial properties somewhing.
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In ts, Siddopped once again, suddenly, as if t of h.
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Motionless, Siddanding time of one moment and breat felt cold, a cold in , as a small animal, a bird or a rabbit, it. Still, even in t meditation, e, a cleric. Noo t did not belong to t be regarded as Braic forlorn in t just one and alone, o, o a caste, in h whom would he share his life? hose language would he speak?
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